When will you learn
That you don't have to hate me
To break my heart
That you needn't speak so harshly
To scar my faith
And that while our hearts
Beat in such perfect unrhythm
Mine can never be whole
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When will I learn
That there is not one 'true' love
The be and end all of existence
That reopening old wounds
Will never allow scars to heal
And that whilst the first love
May be strongest
There is always room for another
A girl sitting in a plane, can you see her? No-one else can, the mother busy with her screaming kids, the happy couple returning from their honeymoon, the fat teenager, his head bobbing away next to her. Can you see her remembering? What was, what is and what will never be. Dreaming of love and hate, true friendship and betrayal. Fear is dangerous, it makes you lie, but the more you do it, the better you get, 'I'm fine', 'Okay thanks', 'Yeah I'll call you'.
Can you see the comfortable shape of a gun pressing against her leg? She used to work in an airport, she knows the tricks. Can you see her standing, the pudgy flight attendants indignant
her cold eyes accused me
everyday of my wrongs
of the chaos left
in my unobtrusive wake
Melt further
Become one with the dark
Never again let the leaves rustle
In the breeze of your passing
so i melted softly
smooth as chocolate
locking the doors behind me
and binding my heart in love
squeezing blood from a stone
but sure enough here it comes
thick heavy and dull
moulding perfectly to your contours
hours days months pass
and still that beauty astounds
that angry acceptance
as her cold eyes accused me
Dear [NAME],
As I write this to you I wonder if you will ever receive it. Which would you prefer? You sure have been the source of many emotions, funnily enough, never hate, what I had always considered my strongest emotion was weak and pathetic compared to my mindless infatuation for you. This dumb clumsy elephant just crushed a prize panther without even pausing. Sorry about the bad parallels but you understand what I'm trying to say Anyway, I know you don't really want to hear this so I'm going to stop writing now. I should never have started. Everything was so much easier when I was a crazy freaky nobody, content to live in my boo
Feather talling,
Pure and bright,
Sinking slowly,
Through the night,
Through rivers of blood,
Firery shame,
Endurance of,
A deepest pain,
A stone baked bitter,
Hardened heart,
Buried hidden,
Cold and dark,
Rise up whole and,
Cleanse yourself,
Lick your wounds,
Redeem your health,
Love for you,
Love for your life,
Love the unknowing,
Sacrifice,
For even in,
The deepest night,
There is a distant,
Glint of light,
A feather falling,
Shining bright.
fire draining
slowly
escape
fly free
saturate the purity
of gentle white folds
open the chasm wider
embrace the winding path
of uncertainty
colours and sounds
painted together
building walls
squeezing in
drawing out more
more
more
dry empty vessel
abandoned in a bathroom
surrounded by a halo of fire
dust to petals
pink and blue
love to ashes
and love anew
way of living
way to die
start to feel
and start to cry
watching petals
float away
dream to dream
another day
spirits free
rage in pain
killing souls
shattered chain
Little miss pretty
In dangerous woods
Bright clothes drawing
Twisted minds
Boughs snatching
Ripping beauty
Until only innocence remains,
And then that
Disappears as well
left all alone
with a monster
But do not worry
Joyless child
Father is not a monster
Father killed the monster
don't you remember?